It’s the second week since I stopped working. I’m already noticing a huge difference in mobility and mental health. A positive difference. I knew that working was taking a lot out of me but I didn’t realize just how burnt out I was. Not only the repetitive movement and having to force socialization but also just being there while not actually wanting to be was taking a significant toll.
When I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia I thought the only issue I would have was pain. All over pain, localized pain, all kinds of pain really. I’m finding now that it’s so much more than just pain. Other symptoms are digestive issues (like IBS, etc. ), depression, sensory issues, vision problems, fibro fog, fatigue, and more.
Since I’m autistic Im finding that a lot of my difficulties due to autism are also becoming more prevalent. Now that may be because of fibro but it may also be that years and years of masking has just caught up with me. I’m barely able to mask these days to be perfectly honest. Thinking back I can’t help but wonder if I’ve ever really been able to mask that well, considering nobody was surprised when I was diagnosed autistic. But I digress….
My point was that I’m finding I was pushing myself so hard that it was making it very difficult to do the mom thing as well as the cleaning the house thing. And well, pretty much all the other things that a single parent has to do.
So now, two weeks without having to over work myself mentally and physically, I’m finding I’m able to keep up with my kids and home better than before. I still have to pace myself of course but until now I wasn’t able to do the bare minimum.
So I’m optimistic that I will finally be able to make progress over time. I just have to learn to pace myself. Making lists and spreading chores out over the week has seemed to really help.
Okay now I’m just rambling. Back to my show.